Thursday, January 20, 2011

Will it hurt my kids?

When we first decided to adopt, one of my greatest fears was HOW WILL THIS AFFECT MY BIOLOGICAL CHILDREN? How will they cope with extra siblings? How will I be able to express love to each child? Will they have to sacrifice too much? Am I asking too much of them? What if I cannot give them everything monetarily that I could before?

Two months after our babies have been home and all the answers I thought I knew were COMPLETELY WRONG. I worried myself sick over how our youngest would handle not being the baby anymore. My list of worries could go on and on and on. I knew adoption is what God was calling us to, but I still worried about my babies.

God has taught me so much over the last few days, weeks, months. He has shown me that it didn't hurt my kids at all. God has given them a chance to grow and learn so much! The other night, I was listening to Samuel cry because he didn't want to go to bed. I watched Keenan put a loving hand on his back and lead him to bed. Then, he tucked him in and covered him up. I was completely blown away!!!

I have watched all 3 of our biological children sacrifice for their new siblings. I have watched them learn to love like Jesus. I have watched them grow up in so many ways in the last two months. In ways they never would have had the chance to experience had it not been for our adoption. It is hard, don't get me wrong! Who said following God would be easy, though??? It is worth every minute, every second of "hard stuff" at the end of the day when I am huddled on the couch with 4 children sitting on 1/2 of our couch, while the other just fell asleep in my arms. This is pure joy! These precious children, precious gifts from my God have brought so much joy and so many blessings into our family. They have taught us all so much. So if you are asking HOW WILL IT AFFECT YOUR CHILDREN, just stop and do it. It will be the greatest gift and lesson you could ever give them.

1 comment:

Deb said...

Amen, sister. Love the pics!!!